Going with the Flow

Hey There!

How is your week going? Can you believe it's already the last day of February?

Mine? Emotionally so far, it has been a WRECK.

Since Sunday I've been feeling really off in my mood. Work has been really stressful lately with things not going the way I want or would like them too, and it seems like every time I think I have things figured out SOMETHING comes along and messes it all up! I consider myself to be a fairly adaptable person, but for this week... it's just plain annoying. Sometimes I wonder if the more adaptable you ARE the more adaptable people expect you to BE. Thoughts?!?!

Ok, let's shift moods and talk about some healthy movements, shall we?

Mondays have come to be my Cross Training day in my workouts, and today was no exception. I've been really enjoying these random body weight circuit training workouts from Popsugar Fitness. They have TONS to choose from (including ones that use actual weights).

All of the workouts I've completed have 3 circuits with 3 exercises in each. You are suppose to do each circuit 3 times before moving on to the next one. I toyed around with the idea of running through all 3 circuits once and then repeating it two more times, but I like returning to the moves quicker in order to  improve my form by repeating the one circuit 3 times before moving on to the next one. (Did that make sense?)

I have done a different one every week for the past 6 weeks or so. Each one is deceptively challenging, and this one did not disappoint.

 

Im not sure why, but that first circuit was insanely difficult! It was probably those runners lunges and the fact that all 3 workout required using your arms for stabilization. My shoulders, biceps and triceps were really sore by the end of the third round. I've gotten some really great definition in my arms lately, but I still really lack the strength to do that darn elbow plank reach.  

This was completely reaffirmed with my post run workout today!

On the schedule I had a 5 mile run. It was really cold out this morning (39 degrees) when I headed out the door, and I was desperate to move fast and warm up. Im finding that I always love the way I feel on my Tuesday runs (aka the days after cross trainings). My legs always feel refreshed/ready to run and I tend to finish really strong.  

                     

I'm sorry... is that a 7:45 pace for my 5th mile?!?!?!?!?! Why yes, I believe it is! My 2nd mile was partially uphill (that little 8:53 mile in there), but that is still an amazing time with or without the hill. Everything just felt right about this run. The only thing that always trips me up is my breathing in the first mile on really cold mornings. I've considered getting a balaclava to help, but I just feel like its not cold enough for long enough in the year to need one. My lungs will probably hate me for it later. 

When I got back home I did a quick in home circuit training  Standing Core Workout with the 5 lb medicine ball I have at home.

 

I didn't follow the pins directions exactly, but instead set my interval timer for 45 seconds on and 15 seconds of rest and did 10 rounds (10 minute workout total). After doing the above pictured workouts I added a regular plank, alternating side planks and a reverse plank.

Lessons from this workout:

1. I do not like sumo squat crunches (In hind sight this may have been due to me standing wide    enough for the move)

2. I have no idea how to do the torso twist front chop in lunge (ie.. research your workouts and practice before attempting a move)

3. I can not hold a side plank (on either side) for 45 seconds

Note to self: Gotta get to work on that upper body strength goal and continue to work on my planks.  

 Overall It felt really good and I enjoyed having a good time in my workout today. 

In Self Confidence News:

I am definitely starting to feel some definition in my legs, thighs and butt that hasn't ever been there before. It may just be me, but I feel like my glutes are A LOT firmer than usual. My dresses have been feeling shorter and I can feel the definition in my hamstrings in a way that I've never noticed. I feel like the difference is the addition of regular strength training to my workout routines. This is the first time I've ever been consistent with it for more than a month. I usually get bored or just hate it after a couple weeks and do see the true results. I'm really proud of myself for sticking with my goals on this one.

What are some things that you're working on in your routine (workout or non workout related?)

What is one thing that you can compliment yourself on today?

The Long Run

Hi!

Happy Sunday!

I hope you're getting to enjoy the tail end of this weekend. I've been feeling really off today emotionally. I've been a little snippy and just in a funk and I'm not sure why. Not sure if its sleep, over training, stress, waiting too long to eat (Hangry anyone?), the rude lady that yelled at Adam and I this morning while we were walking Plissken or just the fact that I hate that the weekend is almost over... but I'm finally getting to relax and trying to shake the funk.

But, lets not focus on the negative. Lets talk about all the awesome things that came out of this weekend and some of the lessons I learned along the way.

Saturday:
I ran my first 10 mile run in over a year on Saturday, and I did a pretty awesome job at it.

The run felt pretty great. I really tried to keep myself moving slow until the final miles which was when I let myself push a little harder. I'm still not quite near the right pace for a 1:45:00 half marathon (which is in like 4 weeks), but I'm certainly under 2 hours which is more than I can ask for. 

This run was great for two things:

1. I finally got to practice a run while including fuel. I took a Vanilla Bean Gu at around mile 6.  I've bee using this Gu for years. The flavor is light, it doesn't upset my stomach, it has a nice hit of caffeine and helps to push through those longer runs. I take about an entire mile to eat a Gu. When I eat them faster I always end up feeling overly full and end up having GI issues. It definitely helped me push through the last few miles which brings me to...                                                                                                                                                                                               2. I just got to run long and pushed past my fear of the 10 miler. I have been fearing this run since I came back to running in April. One of the things that added to my injury in December 2015 was some major GI issues that I kept having when trying to run 8+ miles. I've still been struggling with my fear of not being able to do these miles, but this run showed me that I can do it. I'm excited to see how the                                 rest of my training goes from here. 

As with all runs/ workouts, not everything is good. There were definitely some tough moments that I am going to learn and grow from. 

1. I made one of the biggest running mistakes on this run and wore all new clothes that I had just got from Old Navy. I am IN LOVE with their Activewear line. I think 90% of my outfits are from there. I had ordered this shirt and these shorts. I really liked the shirt and the color is very nice. I was most excited about the shorts. I was hoping they were long enough to cover most of my thighs, AND they came with a media pocket on both sides. Sadly the shorts rode up on me the ENTIRE 10 miles, but my phone stayed in place! Basically, they'll be fine for short  runs (no pun intended) but not for long runs. 

2. I need to get out of my own head sometimes. I feel like I started feeling sluggish at mile 5 because I knew I was going to be taking in a Gu at mile 6. It was like I was dragging myself down even though I was feeling good and strong. This came back to bit me in the ass in my final mile. I felt myself starting to take short cuts just to have the run be over. I could easily start to beat myself up over it, but instead I'm going to be grateful for this experience that is teaching me that my physical game is strong/solid, but I really need to work on my mental game at this stage. I'm not sure exactly how I'm going to start enhancing my mental muscles, but i imagine its going to include a lot more podcasts, positive affirmations and possibly adding some meditation to my daily routines. The idea has been showing up in various ways in my life lately, but I'm not ready to commit to it yet. 

Sunday:

I already mentioned I've been feeling off today, and it even bled into my 5 mile run. For whatever reason, doing easy runs just feel awful to me. I always feel slow, my form feels really off and I just overall hate doing them. This once was no exception. It was slightly raining, but humid and I just couldn't find my groove through the whole 5 miles. I know that easy runs are important to training for recovery, but I just hate them. 

The rest of our Sunday was filled with running errands and meal prepping and now we're watching the Oscars! Adam is a big film buff so we have to watch!

Here were my workouts for this week:

Monday: This Popsugar Work Out I found on Pinterest

Tuesday: 4.75 mile run @ 8:57pace (Easy) 

Wednesday: 6.2 mile run @ 8;24 pace (Tempo Run)

Thursday: 4.75 mile run @ 8:07 pace (Sprints) 

Friday: REST DAY

Saturday: 10.2 mile run @ 8:38 pace (Long Run) 

Sunday: 5 mile run @ 8:57 pace (Easy Run)

Looking forward to another great week of workouts. Just finished up some meal prep and resting with this little snuggle bug pictured below! Have a Happy and healthy week!

How was your week?

Does anyone else feel this way about easy runs?!?!

Are you watching the Oscars?

Do you meal prep?

The Return... again!

Well, Hello There!

How the HECK are you?!

Me? I'm feeling FABULOUS!

It's been over 2 years since I last wrote here..that's a really scary thought. But I've recently been feeling really motivated to share my life so I figured, "Why the heck not?"

A quick recap, because My life and my goals have changed DRAMATICALLY since I last posted.

1. I broke up with Tyler. 
I finally saw through all the horrible and emotionally abusive bull shit that I was dragging myself through in that relationship and decided to call it quits in September of 2015. It was not a very easy decision by any means necessary, but it was the best decision for me. There were a lot of other things that went on at that time, but I'm not going to go into it here.

I will say though, that I am REALLY glad that I made that decision for myself.

2. I am forehead deep in a very loving relationship.
When I ended things with Tyler there was no longer any internal confusion about what I wanted in a relationship and what I felt I deserved to have in my life. I was very fortunate that all of it came to me almost immediately in my current partner, Adam. Adam and I have known each other for approximately 8 years through my work at Chili's. We reconnected at the end of mine and Tyler's relationship and it has been the best thing to ever happen to me.

I did a lot of shaming myself for how quickly I got into this relationship, but through the process I realized that I was over my previous relationship almost 3 years prior to the break up. I'm also the happiest (and healthiest) I've been in the past decade. We live together in Los Angeles, we have an adorable dog ( a Shih tzu named Plissken)  and we're both into running and being healthy (most of the time) and most importantly EACH OTHER!

3. My Mom passed away in October 2016.
This has been the toughest of my changes. My mom and I were best friends since I was a little girl. There isn't a minute that goes by that my heart doesn't ache for her. But, my mom was diagnosed with stage 3 Ovarian Cancer while I was in Grad School (October 2012) and she fought a really hard and debilitating battle for those 4 years and 14 days. While I'm definitely grieving (and learning how to grieve) I am also at peace knowing she is no longer in pain or having to go through chemo's or surgeries and being just plain miserable.

4. I suffered from my first real running injury (and lived to tell about it)!
In October/November of 2015 I started training for what I thought would be my triumphant return to the LA Marathon. I was getting into the best shape of my life (because I was compensating while going through my break up) and went a little too hard with the squats/lunges one day and pulled a muscle in my right groin. Just typing about it makes my thigh hurt.

I WAS DEVASTATED to say the least. I took my last run on December 24th, 2015 and didn't lace up again until April 1st. It was the worst 3 months of my life. I was an emotional wreck, I felt like a beached whale and nothing I was doing was helping (and I did a lot). I turned to walking, swimming and yoga and it kept most of my demons at bay... but it just wasn't running.

Since then my whole last year has been a really slow progression to getting back to where I was at. I was really afraid of getting reinjured again so I took my time and focused a lot on healing myself in the moment and learning how to prevent future issues.

5. I decided to start training and racing smarter. 
My last half marathon was in October of 2015. I PR'd in under an hour and 45 minutes (say what!) and it was the greatest feeling ever. As you can tell, I was injured shortly there after and havent decided to race.... UNTIL NOW!

I am currently registered for The Wine County Runs Half Marathon in Paso Robles California. I am hoping to run in under 1:45 again, but we'll see how this goes. Adam will be doing his first race (the 5k) so I'm extra excited about this event.

If I perform well at this event I will be returning to the Shoreline Half Marathon in Ventura, California in July the weekend of my 31st Birthday. I promised myself that if i stayed healthy and smart for both of these races that I could then train for the Long Beach Marathon in Long Beach, California on October 8th. The Ultimate goal is to have those 3 races go well so that I can run LA Marathon in the spring of 2018

These seem like slightly lofty goals, but I feel extremely ready for them. My biggest issue right now is trying to just take it one day at a time and not think of it as a "Year Long Ordeal". I wont be registering for any races until I have completed the one previous to it so as not to put any undue pressure on myself.

As I've been getting back to my core "base" training I've been feeling the need to get out and speak about it. I'm not sure if the blog will go to a daily or weekly thing, but I'm thinking it will be a "When I feel like it" sorta gig. I may also be adding a daily Vlog (A Video Blog) component to this, so keep an eye out! I'm still messing around with the idea of recording myself and how it would actually work... but I'm liking the idea more and more each day.

I'm sure there's like 1 million other things that have happened in the past 2 years, but these seem to be the most important and the most life changing. Please stay tuned for my training highs and lows, my tips and treats and all the fun randomness that is me.


Christina

Happy New Years!

January 2, 2015

So, I realize that New Years was a day ago, but I’m just finally getting around to writing. It’s pretty crazy, because I feel like 2014 went by SOOOO fast, that I never really had time to catch up to it. At first, I didn’t think that much had happened in 2014, but then when I really got to thinking, I realized I went through SO much.

In January, I went to Vegas and danced my ass off in a tiny little dress. If you know me, you know that this is a big freaking deal. I’m always very self conscious… and it is not easy for me to just let go. That trip was not very memorable for anything other than that. I also ran the Tinkerbell Half Marathon this month (one of my favorite races) and even got up early to run 4 miles before the race to complete 17 miles for my LA Marathon Training. I’m pretty bad ass like that!

In February, I became a supervisor. That’s pretty weird… because I have never seen myself as being someone who would supervise people. And here I am about to complete a year of doing so. Its only part time, but I really enjoy it, and feel like it keeps me growing

In March, I ran a fucking marathon. I ran The LA Marathon, to be exact. Initially I wasn’t too happy about it, but it will forever be the best and worst day of my life and I will never forget it. Yeah I didn’t finish in the time I wanted to, but I did PR… and that’s still pretty freaking awesome. And I have an awesome story about puking in a push at mile 23 that will knock your socks off. I still haven’t decided if I will ever run a Marathon again, but for now… I feel pretty great.

In April, I almost ended my relationship. It was a really tough year for Tyler and I. We were suppose to take a break, but that didn’t really happen (and I’m glad I didn’t). This might not seem like a very “positive” accomplishment, but it was in a lot of ways. I never really take a stand for myself in relationships, and this was the first time I had ever really done that. It was terrifying, upsetting, and all around empowering and I’m ever grateful for it. I’m also pretty sure that this was the month I celebrated not purging for 1 entire year!!! I remember a time when this seemed absolutely impossible to complete. Now, it seems like a distant memory that I don’t think I ever actually sat down and celebrated :/. I also had the most amazing trip to Washington, DC. I had never been, and I went with my best friend, and I ran, and ate and drank and had the best time of my life! (It seems like April was a REALLY good month for me.

In May, I bought the most WONDERFUL pet in the world, Gil the Fish! Sadly, Gil is no longer with us (Tyler over fed him he got bloated and died)... but for the 6 months we had him... he was AMAZING!

In June, I graduated from Graduate School. I’m an MSW, and I have the student loans to prove it :D. This was probably one of the hardest things I have EVER done in my entire life… and I did it. Thanks to the love and support of my family, my friends, and of course my loving therapist who kept my head on straight ;D

In July, “I got my first Big Girl Job”. Fresh out of college, I was one of the first to get hired as an MSW. Its been a really rocky road, and I’m not sure that I’ll stay at this job forever, but it has been an absolutely amazing learning experience and I have met some of the most Amazing people doing so. I have insurance, I have a 403B and I make a pretty sizeable income. I also Turned 28… Which is pretty great. I had an amazing pool party with Tyler playing with his Beatles Band. 2 more years to 30!!!

In August, Tyler and I moved in together. We have been together for soooo long, and it took us forever to finally reach this point in our relationship. It has been one of the best opportunities, and I could not be any happier than I am right now. He is the yin to my yang, the cleaner of my messes, and the man who loving tells me the food I cook is good…even if it’s not.

In September, I apparently didn’t do ANYTHING!!! I really tried to look, and I don’t think it was very eventful :/

In October, I ran the Nike Women’s half marathon in San Francisco. I hadn’t been to San Francisco in about 10 years, and I almost didn’t run this race. My training had been really off, my hip had been in significant pain, and I really just didn’t think I had it in me to complete this race. But, I pulled myself together and completed one of the most DIFFICULT races of my life. And, I got some pretty amazing bling to show for it. Not to mention, San Francisco was AMAZING! It a little expensive and a little hilly, but worth it. I also got to have my first Halloween at home. I had TWO trick or treaters… and they were marvelous!

In November, I PR’d a 5k hard core. I ran the Tofurkey Trot (yes, a turkey trot for vegetarians).. and I came in with a disgustingly powerful sub 25 minute PR. It made me really happy, and the event was  a lot of fun. And I baked my first pie! Everyone told me it was good… but when I eventually tried it… I realized THEY LIED!

In December, My entire life changed.  I had to do some of the most difficult things in this month. I found out I was pregnant and made the appropriate decision to not continue the pregnancy. While I fully support my decision, I wish that I had never had to be put in that position in the first place. It might not be something that plagues me every minute of every day… but it is something I will carry with me for the rest of my life. I was not ready to be a mother, and I made a very dumb mistake to have unprotected sex. I am grateful for my right to choose what to do with my body and that I have a loving partner who supported me through it. Tyler and I also celebrated 7 years together and we had our first Christmas together in our new apartment. I didn’t get engaged (and I’m TOTALLY not upset about it or anything…. LIES)… but it was still a great holiday season!

And now the year is OVER!!!

Looking back on the year I have a couple of things I would like to “Resolve” and continue to work on.

1. GET ENGAGED. I realize that I don’t necessarily have a say in this one, but it’s still on my list

2. Work Less. I work way too much. I have two jobs, dedicated to Suicide Prevention and its exhausting. This year I should stop working so much and give myself some time.

3. Keep on running!!! I would like to run more this year than I did in the past year. There were a lot of transitions, pains and pauses in my running, and it made me sad not to see as many races in my line up. I would like to do 1 race a month this year (of any distance) to keep myself in the running game.

4. Travel More!!! I had so much fun with my little vacations this year, but I’m ready for bigger adventures. Ideally I would like to travel to Europe with Tyler during the summer. I think with enough coaxing, I can get him to do it with me J

5. Continue to respect my body. While I do not always have the best eating or exercise habits, I have continued to remain purge free! This is always a priority to me, and I want to continue to remain in the best health I can in the New Year.

6. Read MORE! Ideally a book a month would be good. Gotta start somewhere!!!

7. Do something AMAZING in September 2015. Seems to make the most sense.

I know that resolutions are supposed to be LIFE changing and altering, but I like the idea of low expectations. This is solid enough, and accomplishable (wow, I cant believe that is a word).

Alright, my wine is kicking in and my handsome prince has not arrived home yet to eat dinner with me, so I guess I’m going to start without him.

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

Day 2

Wow... I made it to day two... This might not seem like much, but I haven't seen one of these in quite some time. For the most part it was a really great day. 

I woke up and took a really good run and followed it up with some strength training. There really is no better feeling than working out first thing in the morning. Before i even set foot out the door I did some laundry, made quinoa and cleaned up a bit of my room.

School was sorta blah. I'm not feeling either of my classes right now. I'm also dealing with a very passive aggressive teacher who is starting to get under my skin. He's acting as if something is wrong, and treating me very strangely, and it makes me paranoid that I've done something wrong. I really don't like this feeling, but I'm trying not to let one person ruin my everything and just LET IT GO! (Easier said than done)

I finished out the day with an amazing dodgeball tournament with my cohort. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! I had the time of my life! We lost, but it was still great. I also get nervous about these sort of things, because I always worry about making an ass of myself. But I just went out there and tried to have a good time, and I think I was successful. 

Now I'm home, in my fresh bed, with a migraine. So I'm just going to wrap up with my AEIOU's and save the rest for later.

A- Thankfully, Yes!

E- 3.53 mile run, strength training and an hour and a half of dodgeball!

I- Tried something new

O- tried not to make assumptions

U- http://hellogiggles.com/10-reasons-love-body-now?utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=zooeyFB&utm_campaign=post

A Rough Start to a Glorious Beginning

So... I love how I came on here and professed my undying desire to get my shit together and get on the wagon and blog about everything and BLAH BLAH BLAH... and then 

I DIDN'T!!!

I have no excuses for the last couples days... other than the fact that I still wasn't taking myself seriously. After ending a seeming amazing day with a Luna Bar and an entire bag of oatmeal animal cookies I woke up saying, "What the hell am I doing?!?!" 

I could barely pull myself out of bed, I had a migraine and even went to my internship late because I didn't want to face another disappointing day that resulted in my "Failure". Where I knew I had the real problem was when my supervisor offered to let me take the entire day, and I seriously contemplated never getting out of bed and just repeating the cycle for the 100th time...

Thankfully, I did not succumb to the shitty feelings, and I pulled my ass out of bed, ate a nutritious breakfast, showered, got dressed and showed up (even though 3 our of my 4 clients didn't!). I had a commitment to keep and damn it I was going to keep it.

However, I still felt like complete SHIT. After a desperate please to my best friend Talia for an intervention and a much needed cup of coffee I was beginning to feel much better. Together her and I created an amazing ACTION PLAN to get me back on the right track.

Step 1: I agreed to start committing my food to her each night before bed. This is something I used to do with my sponsor for awhile and I found it really helpful. It was sometimes just nice to give it over to someone else and not really have to stress over it. However, I haven't mustered up the confidence to go back to a meeting... so my BFF will have to do. 

Step 2: Make a flash card of things to do INSTEAD of stuffing my face at night (AKA a "coping card")...Not sure why I never did this before, but better late than never!

Step 3: Continue to work on the goals that I set for myself for this week... even though I kinda ignored them. This included my work out commitment and the blogging idea (Thank you Zumba class and the current entry I'm writing). 

Step 4: Call her and talk to her when and if I needed it :D (or just reach out to someone in general if need be)

Not so bad, huh! And surprisingly gave me some instant relief. It reminded me of when I first got into program and the wonderful feeling I felt having some sobriety from food under my belt... which in turn reminded me of a nightly thing I use to send my sponsor: My AEIOU's. 

So I decided to add a Step 5 to the action: complete my AEIOU's :D (for those of you who dont know that my Abstinence, Exercise, Thing I did for myself, Things I did for Others, and what I UNCOVERED for the day. 

So... now you get to have them:

Abstinent: My formal abstinence from program was "to keep what I eat"and I have successfully done that for more than a year. To me abstinence now means not Binging (no matter how small or large) or eating more than 3 meals and 2 optional snacks.

Exercise: I Zumba'd my ass off for 55 minutes and loved every second. I even got a compliment on my energy level!

What I did for myself: I slept end, I showed up, I kept my commitments, I reached out for help, I spoke my mind, I tried something new

What I did for Others: I took the time to listen to someone who is normally quiet, I gave someone who is not heard a voice. I showed up, I offered my support

What did I Uncover today: The other day I watched a fabulous movie called Coach Carter... and it took my breath away. Throughout the movie Coach Carter asks one of his students, "What is your biggest fear?" and the kid had no idea what he was talking about. Finally the kid responds with this quote:

I have fully decided to adopt this as my current mantra. Feel free to join me.

Well, that's enough for tonight. It is time for some sleeps.

Take Care

Crawling out of the Abyss!!!

Hi,

This is Christina. I can not believe that it has been almost a year since I last wrote in this blog. I've thought about returning to it so many times... but always found something "better" to do with it.

A lot has happened since I last wrote on here. And sadly, most of it is not noteworthy.

I ran my first full Marathon, The LA Marathon.
I made it through the worst quarter of Grad School EVER
I reached one year of sobriety from purging
I spoke up for myself in my relationship

Those were probably the most important. Looking through this list though... I realized that I did not really celebrate ANY of these accomplishments. The Marathon was a really big goal for me, but I didn't achieve the time or finish that I wanted. To be honest, I was more disappointed in myself than proud (and still am). But, I'm hoping to come back strong next year and kick its ASS! Winter quarter was the worst.. and I barely scraped by. I got good grades and celebrated by sitting on my ass in bed for an entire spring break stuffing my face and feeling miserable. My recover-versary was nothing short of LAME. I still struggle with food, and emotional eating, so it feels like I haven't really made any progress in this year. I stopped going to AA, I really stopped TRYING and I guess I've just given up on myself.

I wont talk about my relationship because I don't feel like this is the place to do it... but know that things are very confusing, and I feel extremely lost in the thick of things.

Overall I FEEL LIKE SHIT... and I don't want to anymore. I don't like the way I look, I have no energy, I never want to get out of bed, So, for the first time today, I have decided that I am going to really try to do something different, instead of making a list of all the things I am "going" to do... and I will actually start doing them.

GOALS: I keep telling myself that I need to start setting weekly goals... and then I go right back in to doing nothing. When I was in therapy with Dr. Marson part of our group therapy was to make weekly goals. I really like this idea, because right now, I am struggling with just getting through each day. So, each Sunday, I am going to write out my goals for the week, put them on a flash card and place it on my mirror, or next to my mirror... ONE OF THE TWO.


My Goals for this week:

               1. Stop feeling sorry for myself! (Write at least one gratitude list)
               2. Complete all my scheduled exercises (4 runs, and 1 swim, and a Zumba class)
               3. Go to at least one OA meeting
               4. Clean up the 3 B's (My Bedroom, My Body, and my Brain)
               5. Blog it out 3-5x's this week!

This seems like a really good place to start. It wont be easy, but I need to get back to the basics.

Thanks for letting me talk it out :D